Recognizing Happiness

It has been awhile, hasn't it?

If you are wondering how I have been recently, I must say I have been quite very well. I have been feeling better than how I thought I might have been. I have been very blessed by the Lord. I have been given salvation by my God. God has given me my fighting spirit, given me favour, provided me with the many opportunities that was presented to me in the last 2 - 3 weeks. God, I really want to thank You for everything You have done for me. It is not luck, not fate, not by sheer destiny or whatever laymen call it. It is You.

Everything in my life, You have planned for me to live through. The good, the bad and all the ugly, are lessons You have placed in my life to challenge me and help me grow. All these events help me evolve from one who is a simple minded person to one with a razor sharp mind (or so I like to think - HAHA!) You gave me great and supportive friends, wonderful family members who are healthy and happy. You gave me a wonderful and challenging work environment - lovely colleagues and even more lovely students. You gave me a great boss. A smart boss who is top-notch in the design industry. I was very blessed to have him as my boss and have learnt so much from him. It has really been a pleasure. The journey was awesome. :)

Lately I have been blessed with a lot of opportunities. Opportunities to meet new people, make new friends, leave new impressions and opportunities for financial wealth to grow. Even though I always (constantly) worry about money, overspending this month and etc, how much to give to papa / to save in the bank and etc, You never fail to provide me with enough money. I did not NEED more. All that I have earned, is enough for me and my family. This, Lord, I am the most happy. My Lord also keeps me physically healthy. Yes, I may have that occasional headaches, shoulder aches, neck aches and tensed back, that is also because of my OWN doing. Who ask me to spend so much time on the laptop, ipad and phone? Almost always Lord tells me, enough, go rest, but I am still sitting there. I must listen out for Him more. He is always telling me, but I am just being stubborn.

Lord, I think I know why you took mum away. So that I may be independent, so that I may grow up.So that I may take responsibilities for my own actions, and also take care of my brothers and father. So that I may be an adult - no matter how much I refuse to grow up. The years went by so quickly. Almost 6 years now. When I close my eyes I can still hear you around the house - like you never left. But it is true right? I don't think you left.

I grew up, whether I like it or not. I am thirty this year. I am an adult. I have probably lived half my life by now - that is if i lived till 60. :) Lord, please continue to bless us, please continue to watch over us. Please continue to do all that You have been doing for the last 30 years of my life. Thank you Lord. In Jesus's name, AMEN.