Additions...

Oh yea, I wanted to say too, stuff that I left out in my previous post, or actually, I did mention a little - about my poor health. Of late, I have been really neglecting my health, like in a really bad shape. Broken skin on my knees, painful crackling knee joints, crazy hormones, bad temper, bad figure, bad everything. I am even starting to lose my appetite. Now this is serious. People who knows me well,  knows about Jill and her vivacious appetite. I can eat a cow at every meal, bring me to buffet will not lose out one. Yes, I am fussy with my food choices, but when I see something I love eating like mussels, oysters, pork knuckles, pig trotters, pig skin and fat all, I can eat them like no need reservations. Like never heard of cholesterol like that. I love chocolates, cookies, cakes, creamed stuff, what else, tarts, bread, lots of bread, ham, cheese, buns... But of late, for the last 2 weeks, I stop having cravings. I wonder if my lack of appetite has anything to do with my second unwelcoming period and crazy hormones. Oh well.

Actually, I did not really think about it much cause you know, as long as you are working and are stressed up, food choices and health is like secondary. So when my graduates start to ask me, what happened with you, why are you so pale (read bad complexion and skin losing that healthy rosy glow), haggard, and like suddenly so thin (read, small pointed face). I am starting to get a little worried.

Is it really that bad? No right? In any case, I think I really need to like, get my act back together, stop feeling so stressed up and take good care of myself, my health and my body. Because, I only have one body. I have to take good care of myself for my brothers, my father, my Jon Jon, my friends. I don't want to be a burden to my family and loved ones. :) I can do it!